Friday, August 10, 2012

Thoughts on life 8/10/12



So last week was when I had my exacerbation and did 3 days of steroids. I had a chat with a group of people about "quality of life" and if going on disability would provide an opportunity for a better quality of life....

The last few days this has been on my mind??? 

What quality of life would I have if I were to go ahead and bite the bullet? I have said that I did not ever plan to retire and my thoughts have been to work until I get hurt and can not work. When I had my flare my mother said that if I was unable to work that I could move back to my hometown.

(Which is in the middle of nowhere and I never thought that way before but if I were unable to easily drive somewhere, there is nothing there for me. Decent food to purchase for cooking or to dine on is over an hour away. Maybe two!)

My plan has been to work and get my degree in Dietetics, where I could either work in the peripheral of the kitchen or in worse case scenario a clinical setting. Maybe even teach culinary to high school students.

Maybe it is cause this past week was my first real flare since my diagnosis. (Was not near as bad as my first.) But this has me thinking, sorry if I have rambled in my thoughts, hope it made some sense?)

But if I were to step back and work on getting my disability, where would my quality of life be? Speaking with my home nurse this morning about this, I can not see where my quality of life would greatly improve. Yes, I would be more rested but what to do with that rested body? (And no money)

I think that I would just become more of a hermit, never leave my home... I am a social person to some extent but I also enjoy just staying in too. At least in working and attending school, it gets me out of the house...

Thoughts, what are yours?